Feeling Your Way Out Of The Dark!
- No More Power Heels
- Oct 15, 2019
- 2 min read
Being in a place of darkness in your life can be the loneliest place in the world. Especially when you’re in that really deep dark space where you can see absolutely no light, no hope, no friends no family, your in this blank void and you can’t even touch anything around you it’s that pitch black.
During my darkest moments battling through depression and grief I had a moment where I knew it was time to decide to either sink and stay in the sunken place or fight and swim so that I could start to see some type of light that might be able to give me back my fight.
It was one of the hardest decisions I ever had to make because I realised that I had to let go of my past! A past that had defined me to date and had shaped the person that I had become, whether I 100% liked the person I had become was immaterial, the thought and notion of having to really let go scared me because I didn’t know what was next.
The Decision To Fight
During my period of deciding to fight I turned first and foremost to God for the strength to help raise me back up. I also decided that I needed to find outlets to express my feeling not suppress them. I turned to writing poems and songs but also decided it was important to stay healthy by eating right and training, I felt if my mind couldn’t be healthy then at least I could make sure my body was.
I would like to share a video of the poem that I wrote in April of 2017 during my comeback in the hope that it inspires you to dig deeper and know that hope is on the horizon, I am proof that things can get better...but the decision to swim up to the surface of your dark storm belongs to you, maybe today is the day that you finally decide to feel your way out of the dark.
Stay humble and blessed
Ax
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