I Am Not Perfect But I Am Enough!

In my life over the past six months certain things have revealed themselves to me and as a result I started reflecting on my imperfections, past losses, mistakes and current failures. I have to be honest it has taken me to a place where I have started to believe that I am not the greatest mother, daughter, sister or friend; this has subsequently made me draw inside my shell like a tortoise and isolate myself from those that love me the most.

I am not a perfect person and if I am honest I have perused perfection in all areas of of my life for so long to try and validate myself because of past life indiscretions and traumas that happened to me in my late teens. This never ending pursuit of perfection has crippled my view of myself and others at times and navigating my way through it has only been something God has been able to help me rectify.

If your like me trying to be a perfectionist is exhausting and we can convince ourselves that all we have achieved in our lives so far has been in vain and worthless. For me I am starting to understand that in reality it has actually brought me to a place of accepting that I am right where God needs me to be. That place is to trust and believe in what HE thinks of me and not what I think of myself or what others think of me for that matter.

You see he knows that I am not perfect and he doesn’t need me to be. He knows my insecurities and loves me regardless; he knows my fears and loves me regardless; he knows my flaws and loves me regardless. He knows how beautiful I am both insides and out; he knows how much I love and am committed to my son and my families happiness; he knows how grateful and blessed I feel to have friends who support me regardless of whether I am in my shell or not. He doesn’t want perfection from me he just wants me to trust that he loves me unconditionally warts and all and for me to live my life with love in my heart and not fear.

Do not allow the pursuit of perfection to blind you to all the beautiful things you are as the pursuit of this can become an idol that you crave which can control you and create fear inside you that will stop you from having a heart that expects good things to happen.

My wonderful late husband lived by the motto ‘Positivity Spawns Positivity‘, so today know that you are enough and know that you don’t have to be perfect just be yourself and allow God to do the rest.

Stay blessed

Ax